It's been 4 years since that day.
They say time is supposed to heal you
But my scars are still open
I don't know well how it works
But I can say that it still sucks.
I'm so done with everything. I don't even know why, after all this years.I still need to tell you something.
Maybe it's because I always thought that we were similar.I always thought that you could understand me.Maybe that's why I'm here now. I would like to be strong like you. I would like to scream:" In the end it doesn't even matter".
I always felt completely understood by you, with your songs. Every time that I listen you, I have goosebumps; your voice is unique. I always love when u say: "I will never be anything 'til I break away from me"; because you're right; but I'm scared, scared because I'm 20 and I haven't found my place yet; a place for my head, where I can finally be myself. The truth is that I'm also tired, I'm tired of running away from who I really am, but I wanna change who I am, I wanna be proud of my self, even I'm lost right now, I will keep fighting, because I know that I can't faint. I can't faint because I'm not letting my life passing by my eyes without living it. I wanna live, I wanna love, I wanna cry, I wanna suffer and I wanna scream. That's why I'm waiting, I'm waiting to heal, because I will not let anyone put me down anymore. I will try, no matter how hard it will be, no matter what it'll cost. I will try; I have to.