Loving all about his own life.

Questo episodio è l’inizio di un finale alternativo. Immagiate quindi di nn aver letto il 5° capitolo. Qui Tom e Adam sono due ragazzi distinti, non uno solo.

Buona lettura a chi capirà :P

Adam dealt with that. Obviously It hadn’t been easy, but once he did it, everything just changed color.

If he had the chance to turn back time he would have done it all once again. Life was beautiful.

That day was definitely gonna be "The Day". Doubts and misunderstoods were really pissing him off, he had made up his mind.

Why was he keeping avoiding facing the real problem? Off course thinking about facing it was really hard and painful, but there was nothing left to lose in the end, right?

Everything was so different. Adam’s coldness and rationality were gone to leave room for happiness and joy of living. He felt so refreshed, like he had been sleeping for years and had just woken up. A little sleepy but happy, energetic, sober. Yeah, sober but he was really looking forward to get drunk with life. Life is the most powerful drug in the world.

Adam did not care about nothing.

He was longing to get to the Park as soon as possible. He told Tom to meet there.

The dark-haired boy had become Adam’s reason of life since that dream.

And know Adam was going tell his feelings. Sounds crazy? Reckless?

Yes, Adam knew it too, but he felt like it was the only thing to do, he was having enough of "if clauses".

He reached the park as the sky was reddening because of a red sun slowly disappearing far under the sea. It wasn’t as crowded as usual.

Adam sat on a bench and closed his eyes. The wind caressing his skin and drying the sweatdrops on his forehead. His almost blond hair were shining of gold reflexes…

He opened his eyes and enjoyed the color of the sky, so many shades of blue. Blue, as Tom’s eyes. Those blue eyes were like oceans in which he dived every time he looked into them… they fit perfectly Tom’s bronzed skin… he was such a work of art…

Adam smiled warmly and imagined to be hugging his love…

" why so dreamy dude?" Asked a voice from nearby.

Adam looked, he would have recognized that voice amongst millions.

" hey man… ‘sup?" asked smiling, suddenly feeling a bit awkward but not caring at all.

" nothing much… but I’m sure you’re giving something to think about" said Tom returning the smile and sitting on the bench with Adam.

" look at the sky. Doesn’t it remind you of the first time we talked here?" asked Adam looking at the sky, a way to look in Tom’s eyes avoiding them.

" Actually yes… this our own bench now" said Tom playfully.

Adam smiled again and stared at the ground. The wind was getting more violent, but still so pleasing and enjoyable.

" we’ve been through a lotta things ne?" Adam started.

" yeah, but I guess it’s been worth the whole thing." Tom replied.

Then he looked away, waiting for Adam’s next input.

Adam laughed.

" first time we met you must’ve thought I was totally dumb!"

" ahahah, right man!" Tom answered laughing, then he put an almost serious face.

" actually Adam, I thought you were someone to save. Maybe it’s you who saved me.."

Tom paused, just to catch Adam’s reaction.

Adam smiled warmly, Tom started to feel dizzy.

" D’ya remember the promise we made three years ago?" asked the blond haired boy.

" Off course I do. And we kept it, now we dun have secret for each other!" Tom said.

" Actually I broke the promise, there’s something I should tell ya.." A worried Adam said.

He started shivering, he blushed a bit. It wasn’t as easy as he thought. His muscles started aching and he felt so weird. Now he wasn’t so sure about what to do, it was so fucking hard to explain… especially when you’re in love with your best friend and he’s from the same sex.

Adam was sweating blood from his ingenuous heart. Happiness had blinded him, double cut blade. But now, he couldn’t stop he HAFTA do it.

Tom noticed Adam’s state of confusion.

" Aw, this time you must’ve done something terrible" Tom said playfully.

Then he put his arm around Adam’s shoulder.

Adam felt his warmth and closed his eyes, he hoped this moment lasted forever.

" c’mon, it’s okay. Just tell me what’s bothering you, you know I will understand you, like old times" Tom said smiling.

" No Tom, you wouldn’t understand! It’s not your average teenage sadness! This time it’s something just too hard for me to handle!" Shouted Adam as tears were urging to explode.

Tom froze. Maybe… maybe Adam was feeling the same as him… time had come!

" Maybe Adam, I should’ve been more sincere too." Tom said putting his warmest smile he could.

" Whatcha mean?" Adam said not really getting the point.

" it’s like… I’m different and I feel different and I’m so scared! Adam.. I dunno.. I’m not sure of anything anymore… and I can’t tell anyone… but.. Maybe.. you’re feeling the same.. Adam… - Tom said staring at a tree near by.

" uhm… all my cockiness has gone… I’m scared…- Adam answered staring at the ground.

" so am I… my world has changed… but I guess I’m okay with it.. it’s just I dunno if the world will be okay too… - Tom said looking deeply into Adam’s cinnamon eyes.

Adam blushed furiously. That gaze. That marvelous gaze. He was trapped into those blue sapphire.

" Adam… I’m… you know… yeah, that…" said Tom blushing and looking away.

Adam’s heart accelerated.

" you mean.. you like..? yeah?"

" I guess so… are too?" asked Tom almost in tears. Adam gulped. Could it be true? No, it could not be happening! Tom was… gay? Holy shit… maybe he had a chance…

" uhm… am too…" Adam answered.

Then they both started to laugh like fools, but Adam’s laughter turned soon into the most desperate cry. Tom smiled slightly as he hugged his crying friend. He knew how hard was it to admit. He had been through it a year before and had no one to talk about it. Looking at that tender crying boy who was brushing his cheeks against his chest, Tom saw himself… he tightened the grip, Adam was sighing hard and he was shivering… months of sorrow were falling down from his eyes. Tom brushed his cheek against Adam’s and caressed the blonde’s hair. It was so smooth and soft… it smelled so good… his cheek was smooth…

Could it be really happening? Tom’s fantasies were becoming real. He kissed Adam’s forehead while trying to keep him warm.

Adam just felt so comfortable… he thought that warmth was only possible in his dreams. he felt Tom’s cheek against his… it felt so right… he was so hot… then he felt Tom’s lips brushing his forehead… paradise. Tom’s behavior was strange. He had never been so sweet and protective with him. Adam couldn’t help but wonder…

" it’s okay Adam, I know how hard is it… it’s been very hard for me you know? When I realized it my sky fell down… neway, how did you realized?" Tom asked caressing Adam’s hair. Adam stopped crying.

" uhm.. hafta be sincere… I thought I was in love with a boy.."

Tom’s heart didn’t know how to react. Maybe Adam was in love with him! But.. maybe he was in love with another guy… he was shocked… speechless…

" Oh… must be a very hot guy…" said Tom forcing a smile.

Adam smiled back.

" he’s the hottest… but… he’s all… he’s cleaver, deep, hot, he’s kind… he never let me down… he had the warmest smile in the world and…."

Adam paused.

" .. and?" Tom asked, curiosity making him sweat blood.

" And I shared with him the warmest embrace I’ve ever shared…" said Adam., then he smiled as he saw those blue sapphires shining in happiness close to him.

" But maybe he’s also good at kissing… what do you think?" Asked Adam grinning.

Tom grinned back.

" You should give him a try!" Tom answered leaning closer to Adam.

Before they realized they were kissing. A little kiss at first. They pulled apart after just 2 seconds. Then they both smiled and they kissed again. Slowly at first, then they deepened the kiss. Their tongues soon started to dance together.

Adam started to caress Tom chest from under his shirt. Tom moaned in pleasure searching for Adam’s tongue in his mouth.

Adam was enjoying Tom’s lips more then he did in his dreams… they were so tasty and so soft… they were made to be kissed…

Tom took Adam’s hand while they were still kissing, their fingers played with each other’s.

They were experiencing something unstoppable… they felt the urge of being together, they couldn’t wait, they had waited enough. Nothing could stop the two lovebirds, they were loving each other with all their souls.

Tom couldn’t help but cry in happiness, his dream guy was kissing him, and he was so good at it!

His sorrows hadn’t been vane… he had waited so much… but now it was real!

Adam caught Tom’s thoughts…

" I’m sorry, I’m really sorry… I know how much you waited, I see it in your eyes… I never saw them as beautiful as they are today…" Adam said wiping Tom’s tears.

" it’s okay… Adam… I… I might sound crazy… but.. I …." Started Tom.

" I love you too." Finished Adam smiling.

" you do?" Tom asked with his puppy dog face.

" I do. It’s so right! We were supposed to love each other… my little angel feather… I love you…"

Tom smiled and sat in Adam’s lap, enjoying his boyfriend protection.

They held hands.

" forever?" Adam asked.

" it’s me who’s supposed to ask you!" Tom answered laughing.

Adam gave him a little peck on the lips.

" I wanna love you more" Tom said.

" Me too… but now it’s perfect… I just want to be with you now…"

Tom held Adam tightly. The sunset, the sea, the city, the park. Two tired angels.